Sadness…u don't love me huh? You didn't love her. You just didn't want to be alone. Or maybe she was good for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life but you didn't love her. Because you don't destroy people you love.
Never underestimate the therapeutic power of driving and listening to very loud music. Music is so much a part of my life now. I grew up with family members who played instruments and I use it to change my mood any time I am down.