Don't take for granted the strength you possess. Never think you are stuck, don't let enablers stop you from leaving reach out get support take that step and leave. Don't look back free your self from that pain.
This is what it feel like to be with a Narcissistic Sociopath. You constantly have to have your guard up to avoid all attacks. Your survival instincts kick in, and you will do anything to protect yourself from their manipulative tactics.