If you place yourself somewhere close to raw emotions, where you’re exposed to violence and death, instinct and desire, you can brush against man’s true nature. I thought that way I could find a reason to live somehow.
"Some use their powers to achieve great success, while others fall into ruin as a result of being unable to control their powers" Dazai.
Anything I would never want to lose is always lost. It is a given that everything that is worth wanting will be lost the moment I obtain it. There’s nothing worth pursing at the cost of prolonging a life of suffering.